This past week has been an absolute whirlwind of GREAT things and some new revelations about myself. Not all of these so-called "revelations" have been easy to accept, but God has really been hitting me hard concerning some things I need to change.
I will be sharing 10 random facts, musings, {or whatever you want to call them} ranging from surface level to pretty deep stuff. Honestly, no one probably cares, but I need to share these with someone other than Michael & my pups ;)
1. Sometimes, I document weird things. Example:
Honestly, is this moment really photo-worthy? No, but I was bored while waiting for Michael in Auto Zone..so, I took a picture. What is frustrating is that I saw my dear sister that same night and didn't get a picture with her..but I made sure to document my green apple Twizzler. Hmm...something is wrong with me! Ha. If anything, this just represents my love for candy.
2. I take too many pictures of my little pup, Enzo.
I can't help it! He is smiling at me...seriously, I promise you he poses for the camera!
See, I told you! :)
3. Inspiration for office desk.
I love this corner-ish desk. Looks classy, clean, and fresh. Maybe Michael can build one? Fingers crossed! :)
4. Make-Up free for almost a week.
Last week, I really didn't wear any make-up, besides maybe mascara for a couple days. I did this for two reasons. 1.) My left eye is being a jerk and not cooperating; therefore, I have skipped out on my staple make-up item: eyeliner. My logic was, well, no eyeliner..then I won't bother with putting make-up on at all. && 2.) I have been uber lazy when getting ready for work in the mornings lately. Oh well, it has actually been really, really nice just rocking a fresh face and slapping on some mascara here and there! Cheers to au naturale!
5. New Car!
Say "hello" to my new ride. I love her. We had to find a new vehicle due to getting rear-ended on the way back from vaca a couple weeks ago. My old Civic was being totaled, so we needed a new car. God blessed us with her for super cheap. Blessing!
6. Michael's new job.
Well my hubby & I were blessed with wonderful news this past week. Mike got a new job. Lemme tell you, this was definitely all God's doing. The day we were leaving for NC a couple weeks ago, he received a random call from a factory that he had applied to, had several interviews with, and passed all their tests; however, for whatever reason, he was never hired by the company. Well, that same company called him and told him that if he wanted, they were going to refer him to a sister-company of theirs for a job since he passed all the training and tests at the company. Mike accepted the recommendation and was given instructions to email his resume and fill out an application. He sent those items out to the sister-company and we put the rest in God's hands. Well, he was called back and was asked to take a test. He not only passed the test, but scored the highest out of everyone else! That's my man ;) The interview went well for him and he was called on Wednesday and told that he GOT THE JOB!
This picture was taken in the Wendy's drive-thru a couple hours after we found out that Mike got the job. It represents so many emotions. Thankfulness. Contentment. Joy. That feeling of no longer struggling. & about a million other things. I know you may not see those emotions in the picture, but my heart was certainly swelled with such things. This job is a gift from God because it will provide us with more money, insurance for Mikey & ME, amazing benefits & a wonderful retirement plan, and an unpredictable, adventurous future for Michael and I. This company has more than 70+ locations over the U.S. of A. ..Management positions are in Mike's future at this company, which means some moving for us in the future! :)
Sorry this random thought is soo long, but you have NO IDEA how much my husband deserves this. I am a proud wife.
7. I need to be okay with this season in my life.
Unlike Michael, I have not found the exciting job that will help us out financially or move us to cool U.S. cities....well, not yet, that is. Unfortunately, I have a hard time with being patient. I'm sure more than one person can relate to this feeling. As I have mentioned in the past, I am currently in graduate school working towards my degree in counseling. If you don't already know, it is nearly impossible to get a psychology-related job with just a Bachelor's degree. Honestly, it sucks. You work 4 years towards your Bachelor's degree in psychology to graduate and not find a job. It is crucial, no NECESSARY to get your Master's degree when majoring in psychology {just a BIG FYI}. Anyways, since I am working towards my Master's, I am stuck working these random jobs that have nothing to do with psychology. While I am very, very thankful to have a job, it's just incredibly discouraging to not yet see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have a problem with realizing that I am only 23 years old. I mean, my husband and I own a house! How many other 23 year-olds can say that? Not many. Yet, I still get uber frustrated that our house isn't perfect, we don't drive 2 nice cars, and that I am stuck in this weird job phase.
I had an eye-opening conversation with a superior of mine at work last week. She is so sweet & a wonderful Christian lady whom I admire. We were talking about my search for other part-time jobs so I can help Mike out financially and etc. and I was expressing my frustrations to her about this crazy, "stupid" season of my life. She calmly and politely reminded me that I am 23. It's not necessary for there to be 2 super nice vehicles in my driveway or to be successful at my dream career yet. As she continued to give advice, a flood of conviction hit me. Why am I not okay with this season? Honestly, I feel like a failure. Which is stupid. How can I fail at a career that I'm not even licensed in yet? Or does it really matter that Mike and I drive Craigslist-find cars and our friends don't? Heck no it doesn't! That doesn't define my success in life. Anyways, the point of this thought is that I need to discover why I feel so insecure in this season and I need to change my attitude. God is here in this moment trying to teach me something...and it's really hard to learn when I am constantly complaining about it and comparing my life against others. Prayers please.
8. I am a critical person.
Whew. This was insanely hard to realize and accept. Michael and I were laying down in bed one night this past week and were just talking about life. The conversation drifted towards what God was revealing to the both of us, on a personal level. All of a sudden, it felt as if God took His holy hand and slapped me across the face. I came to the realization right then and there, that I am very critical. Not only am I critical of myself, but of others as well. I'm sure that various events in my life have have transformed me into this critical being, but I hate it. I don't give people enough credit at times, nor do I always put myself in their shoes. After the shock of this realization wore off a little, I started to cry and beg God to help me with this ugly trait. I know that 99% of people don't see this trait in me, but poor Michael does. And ONLY because I share all my thoughts with him about people and myself--whether they are good or bad. This is a major trait that I am really trying to change about myself because it sincerely is an ugly thing that Satan uses to put wedges between the children of God. Thankfully, God still loves me and extends His grace towards me! Ugh, this needs to change!
9. Children?
Since Mr. Michael and I have now been married for over a year, I have been receiving more questions about little kiddos. For those of you who have known me while growing up, you know that I have never been the "motherly" type of person. This was always my sister's personality. Little kids clung to her and she was so great with them! I, on the other hand, was more of the "okay kid, you are annoying" type. However, more recently, God has really planted this hard-core desire to be a mom in my heart. DISCLAIMER: I am NOT pregnant, nor are we trying! {<--had to get that out there!} For whatever reason, an unexplainable love for my future children has resided in my heart. I am more than excited to start a family with the love of my life, but WHEN I AM FINISHED WITH SCHOOL :) Until then, Mikey and I are very content to enjoy life together--just the 2 of us.
I just think its extremely cool that God has really changed my heart when it comes to kids :))
10. God is in control, right?
This last thought is a question I have been asking myself recently. I can be a control-freak at times, so its difficult to realize that my plans are not always God's plans. He has a much better direction for my life than I ever will; however, He will only take me down that better road if I am willing to let Him take control!
Okay friends, I am sorry I just wrote a novel, but they were thoughts that I really just needed to write down. You pretty much just read an entry I would write in my journal. I would really appreciate your prayers concerning the internal issues I expelled upon. It takes a lot to be this vulnerable on the internet, so please...be nice and don't judge me :) Just kidding, but seriously, I hope someone can read this and relate to one of the thoughts and find some sort of encouragement or nugget of truth.
Have a lovely week <3
