God sees me as good enough..

lately, i have been battling with this...not feeling good enough. it is a defeating thought that runs through my mind, and many other minds, more often than it should.  i am currently applying for different jobs since i graduated in April with my bachelor's degree in psychology. well, in April i figured that i would be cleaning at OCU for maybe half the summer then God would place me in a job that related to my field and everything would be fine and dandy. well...you guessed it; i was wrong.  it is already August and i am still cleaning at OCU with a college degree. granted, i am planning on starting my master's degree in December, Satan still plants that awful thought in my mind--Lacey, you are not good enough for a better job. UGH! i hate Satan and his ways to destroy God's children and their self-worth that is found through our beautiful Lord. 

not only does Satan use this, "you're not good enough" for jobs, but he also uses it when it comes to my duties as a wife. i had been warned by many women i respect, that i will compare myself to other wives many, many times. there are times when i don't cook dinner every night and i think to myself, "wow, i am not being a good wife to Mike at all...i bet "so and so" prepared a great meal for their husband" and other negative thoughts that i shouldn't believe. HOWEVER, i know that Mike sees me as a great wife {even when i don't cook dinner every night or the house isn't sparkling clean at all times}. more importantly, i know that is not what God judges as a good wife or a bad wife. God sees a good wife as being loving, patient, kind, trusting, honorable, encouraging, respectful, and the list goes on. 

it is on nights like these, that i must remember...God sees me as good enough <3

here is a devotion that i discovered tonight. i encourage you to read it and just reflect upon these words that she brings, because they are truth :) 

Have you ever had a ‘not good enough’ moment?  Where no matter how hard you try or how hard you work it seems like whatever you do is never ‘good enough’.   Many live life having a plethora of ‘not good enough moments’, and sadly many end up accepting and believing that no matter what they have to offer, it’s just never going to be ‘good enough’.
Truth be told we all have something that makes us ‘good enough’.  I love that although my earthly flaws and deficiencies may not make me ‘good enough’ for some things, I have a Heavenly Father whose vision goes far deeper than the vision of  those around me.
In Scripture the Prophet Samuel was in search for a replacement for King Saul, and he went to the house of a guy whose name was  Jesse where there were several young men in who were viable candidates.  Yet in that same household there was also a boy who was shepherding in the fields, had fought off savage beasts, and had a heart of gold; yet with all of these accomplishments when the moment of opportunity knocked at his household, not even his Dad thought he was ‘good enough’.  Apparently his older brothers had lived their lives being ‘good enough’ in the eyes of their Dad, their community and even society in general, but no one realized that God looks past what we often view as ‘good enough’ to make his choice, God had noticed the little guy, David’s heart, and that made him ‘good enough’.
I don’t know if you’ve ever had the ‘I’m not good enough’ struggle, or if you’re in the midst of that battle now, but I want you to remember that God looks deeper, and He bypasses all of that other ‘stuff’ that man judges as benchmarks and standards to be good enough.  Aren’t you happy that God’s standard is equal and attainable?  I am, because it’s made me ‘good enough’ for Him.  Try living by His standard and stop believing the lies you’ve been sold, YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH!!!

“God judges persons differently than humans do. Men and women look at the face; God looks into the heart.”
1 Samuel 16:7 (The Message)

gooood night.....